pinapple piss

i pee'd today and it smelt like pinapple juice

from the drinks i had last night with dew and the e coup. it weird how someone saying one thing can change your whole perspective. i was talking to K and i was sayign that i think it could last a really long time and i think itll be really good and we are so alike and etc etc and then now i heard that richard gave it 3 weeks and laura doesnt think its going to last a long time either and i dunno now i have doubts just because other people do. that sso weird and it really shoudlnt effect me liek that because this is mine and his relationship and they dont know how it is i do so why would their opinion matter anyway??

i thin i should just have the attitude that this thing is fun and its a first relationship and im just going to try and have as much fun as possible and try not to make it serious and think too much about it. i mean thats what i have done so far i kinda have just jumped into it and am just having fun..

i think the issues are going to be
-i dont spend enough time with him
because i have a life outside of bf town and i have friends and richmond and work and school and limited time as it is and i dont want to make my life all about him
on the other hand he did say that he doesnt want to be like that either so thats not a problem at all yet
-secondly he drinks ALOT like he always is drinking and getting drunk and i dont always want to party i really dont.
BUT it is good that he doesnt want to stay in and do nothing all the time and he is social and he did just hang out me and him on saturday night and we didnt drink or anythign so it was fine and i liek to drink too so maybe it wont be such a bad thing
-THIRDLY he drinks and drives all the time! and i am not going to be a controlling gf and tell him what to do that is his choice the problem is that he does it all the time and i get rides with him everywhere and i dont relaly see a way around it without causing a big problem or being annoying. that is his choice but if he does it all the time and thinks im allright with it thats not good and what if he gets in an eccident and what if im int he car with him. its just a really ahrd situation so we will see about that

other than that everything is relaly good! i like the sex even though it hurts a bit and i dont know if thats just cause i dont have sex all the time or if it cause my body is fucked up or what. but it doesnt hurt ALOT just a bit so i can deal with it... i need t listen to K and not give it to him all the time, but right now i want to! ahahah and its hard not to! so we will see i think the most important thing is to not let him take advantage of my nicenessa nd my softness i am going to have to take a stand about some things and stay strong but WE WILL SEE so far so good and hes cute and he makes efforts and he actually likes me!! and we get along great and we talk great and he actually thinks im funny thats a rarity! soooo no complaints but its only been just over a week ahha so who the hell knows what im talking about next week we could be broken up

eamon - fuck it HA me and dew's song....... NAAAAAAt