I am sitting in the cafeteria studying and am somewhat reviewing my material. that doesn`t matter anyway. i find that i am fine with fialing my expectations when no one knows what my expectations are. when i am at home in my bed studying i am fine with falling asleep. when i am sitting here in front of other students. if i am not studying i am falling behind in the race. they all knwo im not achieving something. im not better than them. if i think someone is watching me i can focus better on studying (or pretending to study) rather than procrastinating.